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April 30, 2003

Uh....

On Monday Eric and I got a letter from our good friend Aaron. He is a marine and he is in Baghdad. It was short and sweet to let us know that he is alive and the letters that we complied made him feel a bit better. We had friends come over and all add a little something to a letter. So about eight people left him a little note about how much we miss him and to stay safe and so forth. It felt good to hear from him the last letter we had recieved was in February...

April 29, 2003

Hoopiness = Happiness

Ahem, I would like to thank Jason for the loverly tutorial and thanks to Ariel for the hooping section of her website. I should have shown my appreciation sooner but I was - uh, hooping!

April 28, 2003

Just Another Manic Monday...

Last Monday a coworker mentioned "You know, it does not seem like a Monday to me." and I could not have agreed more. I hope that today goes just as smooth. 23 days until my class starts at the Mount. I am so excited. I recall myself telling myself that I would never ever take a summer course. People change and I want my fucking degree!

The weekend was fairly uneventful. Friday night friends came over and I passed out before they left. Saturday night ended at around 11pm. Yesterday James and Kathy stopped by for a quick hello. I convinced Kathy that she could hoop no problem and she became a pro in no time and her husband's skills are increasing each time I see him. I still cannot get Eric to join in the fun... Maybe another day.

I am trying to save money. On the other hand I have an urge to go out to eat. I cannot even remember the last time I have eaten something that someone else has cooked...

Oh yeah, thanks for all of the love. I must take some time tonight to let you all know how much I enjoy reading your sites but now I must prepare for the long day of work...

April 24, 2003

23 years ago today.

Happy Birthday to me! I am 23. Wow...

April 23, 2003

Get it on!

Last night I was looking through the summer course booklet for MSMC and I noticed that there is an accelerated session that I can attend! June 30th to August 7th. Right now I am registered for May 19th - June 19th and the fall semester. I am not going to beat around the bush. I will graduate in two years. No more shit to deal with. Go to school and be really really poor. Hey - I have had a slogan that I have been telling my mother for a while. "I'd rather be poor and happy than sort of rich and really miserable." Once I get my real degree I will have no problem working and getting my masters at the same time. Fuck this stupid Associates. I hate that degree - I know I know at least it is a degree. Well I hate the damn thing it has done nothing for me. Well that is not true. It got my into a four year school. I think it is time for me to shut my face and get ready for work.

April 22, 2003

In May

My mom's birthday is May 23rd. I was thinking about taking her to see Fleetwood Mac. She loves the music but hates cigarette smoke. We all know that the arenas fill up with that shit in no time and that smoke rises. I of course will only be able to get nosebleed seats. Do you see the problem? So I was thinking that it may be a better idea to take her to the Pepsico Sculpture Gardens. It is free and it is beautiful. This time I can get photos of what I missed (memory card ran out of memory...). I am still using the card that came with the camera. You can buy ones with more memory but my dinky card can hold about eighty pictures. I think I can survive with eighty pictures. If I reduce the size I could hold much more... Anyway back to the point.

Mom + birthday + sculpture gardens + family + picnic = (free) family fun!

April 21, 2003

Couldn't help it.

I added more pictures! And for a Monday- today was not too shabby.

April 20, 2003

Happy Hooping! Happy Easter!

We did it! My mom and I made eight hoops yesterday. She loves it so much she wants to sell them at the yearly "insert local town's name here" day. We already sold some to the neighborhood kids! I will have about three or four of them for myself. I will be bringing extra to the vibes ! Maybe I could unload a few of them there. I bet there will be a hooping booth already... eh, who knows.

April 18, 2003

Please.

Please send my mother some love.

he also stated "I should just kill you right now" and it was upsetting. I begged him to back away from me, I felt his spit and had to cross eyes to see his fingers... he would not. I begged him to talk with me like an adult...

Random ADD thoughts.

I used to use Microscoft Outlook Express. Now I used Microsoft Outlook. There are tons of neat doo-dads and gizmos. I have yet to take the time to play with it. I am sure you all care about what email client dealie I use.

It is finally the weekend. I include Friday because all day long I am stuck in "It's Friday" mode. This week was so incredibly long; I really need to sleep a full eight hours.

My crazy mother worked thirteen hours yesterday. I am glad that she enjoys her job enough that she is willing to stay more than eight hours.

I will be running to the hardware store tomorrow for I will be making myself a hula-hoop. I promised myself that I would have one by my birthday and I have less than a week to finish the project now.

I mailed my tax junk in last month - where are my checks?!

I am getting restless now that the weather is warmer... I need to be outside and in flipflops at all times.

Go read what Renee has to say about the war. I argee completely and could not have said it better.

April 16, 2003

Hermm...

Ass is so Bracing.

Nutter Butter!

I call my dog anything at all close to his real name - Noah. Well not really, or sort of. Nutter Butter turns into Butter which turns into Pooper... Yeah I am not really sure how the hell Pooper got put into there but my dog responds to me no matter what name I come up with at any given moment. Currently he is rolling around like a puppy on my bed. His feet in the air; he is near the edge and could fall off. Which, by the way, he has done before. (I suck with commas and I want to teach kids!) Yep all 108 lbs of the dog has fallen off my bed. My gracious mother bought me a frame so the mattress is no longer directly on the floor so it is quite a fall. I love my puppy...

Last night was okay until I took the kids to get marshmallows. We were gone for 7 minutes and the world at my house turned upside down. I am not going to get into that, I will leave that up to my wonderful, strong, beautiful mother. Let's just say that things are different and I wish there was something I could do to help...

April 15, 2003

As per Katie's request.

I have been bored with the internet lately. No one seems to have anything to say and of course I am no exception. I was going to say the same thing to you Katie, that is of course until I looked at your site. You updated too! Ugh. I don't really know where to start. My job is no longer stressing me out. For one I no longer care. I have taken on the "fuck it" attitude. I can not contain my excitement! I will be attending The Mount full time this fall. And nut-ball me I am going to be taking a summer course. And what does this mean to my career at CustomerLinx? Well that fate will be determinded by Human Resources. I know the hours I am willing to work. They can decide where to put me. Everytime I see something that annoyes me I just think "May 19th Summer Session I & August 27th(?) Full Time BABY!"

I still don't quite understand Friendster. My credit card debt will be gone by May. I have 40 hours vacation time at work. I got my new Real Simple in the mail today. My skin is sort of clearing up; I have been using tea tree oil. It is warmer than a mutherfucker. I can't wait to bbq every single weekend! I am so fucking happy. Katie - I am going to call you right now!

April 11, 2003

Rain...

Quick random thoughts. I love rain. But I will hate rain tomorrow. I have Yankees tickets. I love the fact that today is Friday. I hate things that I cannot change. I wish the best for my mom. I like the anagram my sister had written on her arm... hehe...

After looking at this I have an extreme urge to create something...

April 09, 2003

Ahhh...

I can see the sun! There is sunshine!@ I haven't seen any signs of the sun in three years (or maybe just three days...) Make the snow go away! Do your job sunshine! Melt it all away...

Abrupt subject change. I have a bruise on my hand. I can see it. All day long I have been staring at it. I can see it while I type. When I move my hand to move the mouse I stare... What in the hell did I do to myself?

April 08, 2003

Grrr.

First of all I am pissed off at myself. Secondly I hate having the same old boring shit for dinner. I am off to the store to pick up something new and interesting.

*Update* I am going through my old Art History notes. Ahh... It's like yesterday. I plan on making my notes into a book. I want to type my hand written chicken scratch. I have tons of study sheets that I can already add to the "book" doing this will make me happy. Anytime I am annoyed or upset with myself I will look at this book. Besides I need the review - I want this information tatooed into my brain.

April 05, 2003

Please excuse me.

My sister showed me this. I thought I would share it with you.

April 04, 2003

Not normal.

My room is messy. My desk has a pile of papers. I am wearing a Yankees jersey and sneakers. I bought Eric a pack of cigarettes. I have a Bud Light chilling in the freezer. I am acting crazy.

I cannot wait for summer... I am getting antsy... I can feel the music and hear the warmth...

*UPDATE* I had two Buds in the freezer, I got the $5 for the cancer sticks, I am in a hoodie now - fuck that jersey it was too long and driving me nuts. Also check out the new "skin".

Never Ending.

This week just creapt along. Now I have to make it through today. My job this week has just been up and down. Coworkers with bad moods began to get to me. I try to stay happy. (not caring and not being happy are too different things.) It is difficult when you are in a tiny cube in a tiny room. It is difficult when your coworkers think it is cute to hang up twenty photo copies of Sponge Bob Squarepants. It is difficult when you dream about a different life and see a wall with the paint torn off. It is difficult when you look at the wall to see construction paper that was hung four years ago. (we all know that paper fades...) It is difficult to smile when you see everyone frown. Yet I try. I am rarely in a bad mood. I may get stressed but then someone reminds me to look at why I am stressed.

It is difficult when you see others stuggle doing something you could complete with little effort. It is difficult to share my email. It is difficult to not go on the internet yet know how to access it and know several passwords. It is difficult to not laugh at other's grammer. (and still know that mine is far from perfect)

It is difficult to see others singing and dancing and goofing off. It is difficult to know that I make "shit" while people with "lower" positions (with a fourth of the resposibility) make the very same "shit".

However it is easy to know that tomorrow is another day. It is easy to smile knowing what I know. It is easy to look up and see Starry Night because I spent $7.89 on a bargin poster. (which covers some of the torn wall.) It is easy to know that I will be in school again. It is easy to know that Eric found a job that makes him happy. It is easy to know that this will all be over soon...

April 01, 2003

April Fool's Day

Last year I was really into April Fool. I told my mother that Eric and I had gotten hitched. Yes we were engaged (and still are) but told everyone that we had no date in mind. Rosalie and I got everyone at work with a silly email. This year I don't know... I guess I don't have any good ideas at the moment.

Now that it is April I am making the announcement that my birthday is on the 24th. I am not one of those people that don't want a big deal. I am not one of those people that want a big deal. Say "Happy Birthday Poopieface" and I will be happy. But anyway the whole point of this rambling is this: I am going to make myself a birthday present. It will be a fun and healthy. Damnit I have been saying that I want to make one but I always flake out... IT will be done before April 24th.

Have a peachy day.